WAKE UP!

i'm back! unfortunately, with no good news to deliver. at least, no good news in terms of this BIGney shrinking. i feel compelled to post anyway, given that most of our success' in life are announced then applauded, while our defeats go tip-toe through the night, in hopes that they wake no one. WAKE UP!!! let's face it, i'm struggling...and with those words come great opportunities for advancement. our brain controls our body so change begins with our thoughts, including the ones where i say to self, this ain't working!

 my good news starts off in a quiet little town, nestled on one of the many finger peninsulas of midcoast Maine. i have a wharf, a mile down the road, and enough trees and space to enjoy peaceful solitude. my life will be good here. our family has been searching for a place to call home and a place to lay down roots, a double entendre, for as long as i can recall... so, here, is where and when the true transformation begins. here, is where my new journey starts, and now is the time.



the "wandering jew"



along route 220





the Cranberry bog

we are excited to grow a garden...maintain a small farm, and put my husband's and family's industrious minds to work, creating whatever we need, to make it on our own. i don't want to continue making the same mistakes we've been making. that is, relying on everything externally, to create a bountiful life. more action = better health. i was very excited to speak with a women yesterday, who raises Nigerian dwarf goats. boy, is she excited to get us started.

Chantrelle Mushrooms

beaches, mushroom hunting, sea shells, moss, harbors, schooners,
old cemeteries, hydrangeas, local food,
trees, history, blueberry barrens,
antique shops, lobster... some of the many reasons we love it here already...
mostly i love it, because my boys are here.







December 1, 2012

this year for Christmas, we decided to cut down our own tree on our own lot. this is very symbolic of what i want the new year to represent for myself. everything we need is right there, it's with us. i need to remember this each and every time i'm frustrated or tired..or in need of inspiration. we will always have what we need within ourselves. i hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas holiday and i look forward to the beginnings of a new year. this year will be full of new adventures and exciting additions....can't wait to fill you all in.



irony

irony: an outcome of events contrary to what was, or might have been, expected.

the title of my blog, the shrinking BIGney, was intended to document my progression in weight loss and acquired health...little did i know when creating this blog in 2010, i would actually begin recording my experiences at a time, 2012, when my health and weight could use the most consideration. the irony...

may 30, 2009

i gave birth december 22, 2011 and gained a sizable sum of 55 pounds in the making. i was already peaking at my highest weight, pre-pregnancy. then at 42 weeks of pregnancy, i did the math and figured i was exactly 120 pounds heavier than i was on my wedding day.

how did this happen? i'll save this for another post.

although i've been hesitant to start a blog, being the non technological giant that i am,  i thought perhaps this might be a way for those of us struggling to make healthy connections with ourselves, a little easier to swallow.( no pun intended) for those who have never had to worry or feel inadequate about their weight, good for you! (enter sarcasm here)  i can certainly address the zillion other things that enter my hemisphere, that either negatively or positively affect my health and well being.

 i want to be an active mother, a full participant in my families life. i want to find joy in setting goals, working hard towards them, and achieving success. i want to experience happiness as i have never before and more importantly, i want to be an example to my son. an example of courage, dedication and hard work.

duncan grey

when i stop to think about the generation of today, and the food industry of tomorrow, i feel an uneasy sadness consume my whole being. now more than ever, we need access to fresh organic garden vegetables. we need to bring the orchards back. we need to teach our youth that food is not merely sustenance, it's survival. we need to teach, by example, that our health someday may be determined by our relationship with the land.

i have always been overweight. the relationship i'm gaining with food  has become a  healthier one. although i didn't grow up eating boxed foods full of preservatives and i didn't grow up with the golden arches as my bestfriend, i did learn at a very young age that sugar was plentiful and delicious. some of our family traditions were founded on sweet treat rituals that still, to this day, have never left my hand.

 i have a long road ahead of me and hope to be able to make needed changes as i go. priority #1 will always be to grow my own food and/or find seasonal, fresh, whole food. priority #2 will always be to get moving. i have been able to take off thirty pounds and have a goal to lose 10 pounds a month. hopefully in the coming weeks, i can check back in and report that paige BIGney, in fact, is shrinking.